Posted on 2009.11.30 at 04:48
Current Mood:
sleepy
Current Music: Love Song For A Savior - Jars Of Clay
Tags: lauralie
I live to glorify the Lord.
I want nothing more than to have what God wants for me.
My selfish and pety desires to be washed away.
I want to be exactly what God wants me to be.
No matter what, I've always whispered, "I trust you."
And I've always meant it.
A night without sleep is not a big deal.
Because I'd rather invest the time in a friend.
Posted on 2009.11.28 at 12:39
Current Mood:
cold
Current Music: Somebody Loved - The Weepies
Tags: lauralie
I've come to discover that I'm one of two things.
Either.
Simple in a really complicated way.
Or.
Complicated in a really simple way.
I don't know which one though.
Posted on 2009.11.27 at 17:29
Current Mood:
cold
Current Music: Light Years Away - MoZella
Tags: lauralie
What a lovely night.
And what a lovely morning.
I hope I'm not the only one who feels this way.
And that's really what it boils down to.
Am I the only one who feels this?
Posted on 2009.11.25 at 21:11
Current Mood:
disappointed
Current Music: Young Folks - Peter Bjorn and John
Tags: lauralie
For the record, Pirate language on facebook is the greatest thing ever.
And also.
It's so very apparent how different we all are now.
I'm glad though.
The only thing is, I think this might be happening to early.
Shouldn't this happen in about a year?
I'm probably the only one who feels it.
It's always just me.
Well, I am a year ahead so that would make sense.
I don't know.
I do know that my body is quite aware of what's going on.
As far as that's concerned.
It's in sync with my heart.
It really always has been.
"If I told you things I did before
Told you how I used to be
Would you go along with someone like me?
If you knew my story word for word
Had all of my history
Would you go along with someone like me?
I did before and had my share
It didn't lead nowhere
I would go along with someone like you
It doesn't matter what you did
Who you were hanging with
We could stick around and see this night through
And we don't care about the young folks
Talking about the young style
And we don't care about the old folks
Talking about the old style too
And we don't care about their own faults
Talking about our own style
All we care about is talking
Talking only me and you
Usually when things has gone this far
People tend to disappear
No one will surprise me unless you do
I can tell there's something going on
Hours seems to disappear
Everyone is leaving, I'm still with you
It doesn't matter what we do
Where we are going to
We can stick around and see this night through
And we don't care about the young folks
Talking about the young style
And we don't care about the old folks
Talking about the old style too
And we don't care about their own faults
Talking about our own style
All we care about is talking
Talking only me and you
And we don't care about the young folks
Talking about the young style
And we don't care about the old folks
Talking about the old style too
And we don't care about their own faults
Talking about our own style
All we care about is talking
Talking only me and you
Talking only me and you
Talking only me and you
Talking only me and you"
That's the song.
=]
Posted on 2009.11.24 at 20:08
Current Mood:
uncomfortable
Current Music: Death For My Birthday - Say Anything
Tags: lauralie
Something's happening here.
1. We're stronger than this. Right? There's movement here. An unfamiliar shift that I don't understand. And it scares me. I swear it does. I can't lose you.
2. All I know is that I don't know anything. And that's why I think I know. Just wait for it. And it will all make sense.
3. I've never seen anything but you. Ever. Even if someone else was in the backround, they've always been out of focus. Is it possible for you to become out of focus? Or is this how it will always be? Even if someone else takes center stage, you'll still remain there, for everyone to see?
4. I'm really enjoying you. I just want to hang out with you all of the time.
5. And to you guys. Why is everything so different? It's so different that it almost hurts. You're not the life I want anymore.
Posted on 2009.11.23 at 20:11
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't - Brand New
Tags: lauralie
I miss you.
I do, I promise.
I hope you're keeping safe.
On an entirely different subject.
It is so hard to be patient with my mother when she acts the way she does.
Questioning the motives of everything.
What are her motives in all this questioning?
She's not asking because she wants to know.
It's a witch hunt with her.
And it always has been.
Posted on 2009.11.22 at 14:25
Current Mood:
grateful
Current Music: Shame - The Avett Brothers
Tags: lauralie
I had a wonderful amazing time this weekend.
With all these new people "dominating" my life.
Especially last night.
And especially Kat Howarth and Matthew Windseth.
Those people are special in every sense of the word.
Alter. Alter. Alter.
Humans are amazing.
God is so great.
So great.
And I can already tell exactly what this week will mean.
Posted on 2009.11.21 at 14:31
Current Mood:
thoughtful
Current Music: Unchained Melody - The Righteous Brothers
Tags: lauralie
I've never been so glad things are the way they are, than right now.
I don't want it.
I'm happier than I could have been.
I'm sure of it now.
On another note,
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Be safe.
I love you.
Really.
I do.
And other than that, but sort of related.
I'd like to say that the feeling I usually try to ignore or just accept and continue anyway.
That feeling inside me that tells that someone is wrong.
That continuing this is wrong.
It doesn't exist with you.
And I praise the Lord for that.
You're affecting my life.
And I can barely even speak about it because it's so suprising all the time.
I think one thing, but then I'm wrong.
And because I'm wrong so much and because this is suprising me so much.
That's why I believe it's right.
Trust me when I can tell.
Posted on 2009.11.19 at 15:52
Current Mood:
anxious
Current Music: Do Better - Say Anything
Tags: lauralie
I am one with my experiences.
Afterall, life is a series of experiences.
Whether they're problems, interactions, complications, joyful happenings, etc.
I breathe through these experiences.
These little pieces of who I am.
I can take them and turn them into something beautiful.
Or I could destroy myself with them.
God forbid.
I can manipulate myself.
I can.
But I try not to.
I try to let myself flow.
As the wind.
I have gifts.
I do.
I can command the english language to do my bidding.
I carefully construct my sentences.
I have a certain control over ever word.
And I don't always remember this.
This is my power.
God has armed me with my words.
And I must choose what to do with that.
I should serve the Lord with my words.
But I must find a way to do so.
But not just any way.
The right way.
Posted on 2009.11.15 at 17:40
Current Mood:
irate
Current Music: Indescribable - Chris Tomlin
Tags: lauralie
I just want to vomit.
It feels like my heart is bursting.
Stupid stupid stupid people.
Making stupid stupid stupid decisions.
Let the Lord fill this generation.
This stupid generation.
I'm ashamed of my generation.
I won't be around this ever again.
Posted on 2009.11.14 at 15:24
Current Mood:
sore
Current Music: Less Cute - Say Anything
Tags: lauralie
I'm finding myself through my words once more.
I always come back to this.
It just comes natural I guess.
But I really don't think I'm very talented.
Also, the concert last night was incredible.
Posted on 2009.11.12 at 22:22
Current Mood:
tired
Current Music: Kill The Director - The Wombats
Tags: lauralie
I've met someone that makes me feel seasick.
Posted on 2009.11.10 at 13:01
Current Mood:
crappy
Current Music: Your Heart Is An Empty Room - Death Cab For Cutie
Tags: lauralie
I feel like I'm the same damn song stuck on repeat.
Posted on 2009.11.09 at 21:16
Current Mood:
stressed
Current Music: Cemetery - Say Anything
Tags: lauralie
Had Moes tonight with Rachel, Brandon, and Connor.
Lovely evening.
Hey guess what?
I'm failing at school.
AGAIN.
Posted on 2009.11.04 at 16:06
Current Mood:
anxious
Current Music: Mara And Me - Say Anything
Tags: lauralie
I can't wait for youth tonight.
I can't wait till Eckerd College Day.
And then I can't wait for the Say Anything concert.
And then some delicious vegetarian sushi.
Mmm.
I'm so glad I'm a vegetarian.
Posted on 2009.10.30 at 14:34
Current Mood:
bouncy
Current Music: Steal My Kisses - Ben Harper
Tags: lauralie
Skycrest Youth Retreat in less than one hour.
A full weekend.
Alot can happen in one weekend.
=]
Let's hope at least.
Posted on 2009.10.29 at 12:43
Current Mood: nerdy
Current Music: It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Death Wish - My Chemical Romance
Tags: lauralie
So, I don't know.
=]
I'm hungry.
For some hospital food.
And for some love.
Posted on 2009.10.28 at 14:46
Current Mood:
sore
Current Music: I Won't Share You - The Smiths
Tags: lauralie
Sitting in the hospital with my Grandma all day.
I'll probably be doing this tomorrow as well.
I'm not looking forward to life without Grandma Rosalie.
I'll put it off as long as possible.
We all will.
Posted on 2009.10.21 at 09:23
Current Mood:
anxious
Current Music: Letter To A Pretty Girl - The Avett Brothers
Tags: lauralie
Out of everyone ever.
The "I love you" would probably go to Meaghan.
And the "I'm sorry" might go to my siblings.
Posted on 2009.10.13 at 20:05
Current Mood:
tired
Current Music: Forever - Chris Brown
Tags: lauralie
What do you want me to say?
All of you?
Please, I'd really like to know.